Train of thought

Expression of thoughts... Anything and Everything...

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

Finally....

What a relief!!! I was finally able to complete the project. Now I know 5 different ways of how NOT to do it. It was a good learning experience. When I saw the results for the first time around mid-morning, I was ecstatic. I then started improvising on it until I got my final results. I can now proudly claim that I am the first person in my office to create this configuration. Lack of proper documentation was the cause of this delay. I have paved the way for the others to follow. I am yet to document it though. I will be doing that tomorrow. I am now relishing the success.

This is actually not a great achievement or anything. Its the challenge that it posed was intriguing. I could not let that get away unsolved. So I took up the challenge. I should take more such challenges. My neurons have been dormant for a while now and is ready for some action. This was just a warm-up. And a very good one. In my previous job, I always made it a point to be ahead of the pack. I no longer do that anymore since my nature of the job has changed quite a bit. This exercise reminded me of those good old days.

I was so busy today that I did not have time to catch up on the current affairs. I missed Bush's address to the nation on Iraq. Not that I am keen to hear him speak but I was a little hopeful that he would have some plan for its future. I then came to know that he was grinding the same flour all over again. Had a good workout today. Mowed the lawn and did some gardening. Lifted some weights. Took a nice cold shower.

I got to taste an "Agraharam Penne Pasta". That's right.. Penne pasta prepared the Indian way. It was very good and a creative dish.

Overall a good day...

Monday, June 27, 2005

A little known tax credit..

Following is a Mercury News article that I came across today.

Here's a totally legitimate, but not generally known, way for you
and/or your readers to save significant tax money (under certain
conditions).

When my daughter said she was going to rent a car to visit the Grand
Canyon and other out-of-state sites, I told her to be sure to save the
rental invoice and other significant billings for motels, restaurants,
gas stations, national parks, etc.

Tax charged on merchandise rentals is use tax and very different from
sales tax in several ways.

Use tax on rentals does not apply when the item is not in California.

Even though the merchant may be required to collect a use tax, the tax
is legally considered as imposed upon the customer. This means that if
any tax was not due the state can refund it directly to the customer.

I sent photocopies of the documents proving that my daughter qualified
and suggested a proration to exclude her honest estimate of the time
she had spent driving between San Francisco and the state line.

The claim was accepted and soon my daughter had a state check for about $23.

Howard Frohlich
Redwood City

A Howard Frohlich is a retired sales tax auditor and a frequent expert
contributor to Action Line.

Futile day...

Its been a long time since I had one of these days. I started a project today morning with a vow that I should complete it by end of the day. It was a super busy day with 2 conference calls and all day work. By 5PM I was still where I started at 7AM in the morning. Absolutely no porgress. I was mentally exhausted and went for an intense 45 minute workout. That was the only high point of the day. Burnt a satisfactory 500 calories with a motivation to burn even more. That was physically exhaustive and mentally refreshing.
I closed shop for the day at 6PM promising myself that I will tackle it again tomorrow morning. Hopefully a fresh mind in the morning will help. Its been a long time since I had started such a project and was not able to complete it. I remember 2 years back, I used to complete 2-3 such projects a day. I have been struggliing with this for the past 2 days with no progress whatsoever. Something is fundamentally wrong. I need to go back to basics.
I see that this is affecting my sleep too. I am so pre-occupied with this that I am not able to get a good night's sleep. I need to put a closure to this. Hopefully tomorrow is a better day.

Friday, June 17, 2005

Earth moves yet again..

This time very close to home. 4 earthquakes in California in the past 5 days. That sounds a bit scary. Does this indicate a looming destructive earthquake ahead or just aftershocks? Interestingly, we are supposed to be living in a very scientifically advanced era but we still cannot predict such destructive forces of nature let alone prevent them. I am now closely following all the seismic activities around the world after the 2004 tsunami near Indonesia.
Every time I hear about an earthquake, my stomach churns a little. I don't know why. I have never experienced a serious earthquake before. I have heard about a lot. So this makes it even more intriguing. Hopefully there should not be any destructive one in the near future.

Jobs commencement speech at Stanford....

Transcript of Jobs' commencement speech at Stanford:

Thank you. I'm honored to be with you today for your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. Truth be told, I never graduated from college and this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation.

Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots. I dropped out of Reed College after the first six months but then stayed around as a drop-in for another eighteen months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out? It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife, except that when I popped out, they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking, "We've got an unexpected baby boy. Do you want him?" They said, "Of course." My biological mother found out later that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would go to college.

This was the start in my life. And seventeen years later, I did go to college, but I naïvely chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life, and no idea of how college was going to help me figure it out, and here I was, spending all the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back, it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out, I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me and begin dropping in on the ones that looked far more interesting.

It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms. I returned Coke bottles for the five-cent deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the seven miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example.

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer was beautifully hand-calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and sans-serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me, and we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts, and since Windows just copied the Mac, it's likely that no personal computer would have them.

If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on that calligraphy class and personals computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do.

Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college, but it was very, very clear looking backwards 10 years later. Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward. You can only connect them looking backwards, so you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something--your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever--because believing that the dots will connect down the road will give you the confidence to follow your heart, even when it leads you off the well-worn path, and that will make all the difference.

My second story is about love and loss. I was lucky. I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents' garage when I was twenty. We worked hard and in ten years, Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4,000 employees. We'd just released our finest creation, the Macintosh, a year earlier, and I'd just turned thirty, and then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew, we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so, things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge, and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our board of directors sided with him, and so at thirty, I was out, and very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating. I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down, that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure and I even thought about running away from the Valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me. I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I'd been rejected but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods in my life. During the next five years I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the world's first computer-animated feature film, "Toy Story," and is now the most successful animation studio in the world.

In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT and I returned to Apple and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance, and Lorene and I have a wonderful family together.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful-tasting medicine but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life's going to hit you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love, and that is as true for work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work, and the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking, and don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it, and like any great relationship it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking. Don't settle.

My third story is about death. When I was 17 I read a quote that went something like "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself, "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "no" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something. Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important thing I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life, because almost everything--all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure--these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago, I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctors' code for "prepare to die." It means to try and tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next ten years to tell them, in just a few months. It means to make sure that everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope, the doctor started crying, because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and, thankfully, I am fine now.

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope it's the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept. No one wants to die, even people who want to go to Heaven don't want to die to get there, and yet, death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because death is very likely the single best invention of life. It's life's change agent; it clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now, the new is you. But someday, not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it's quite true. Your time is limited; so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma, which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice, heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalogue, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stuart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late Sixties, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and Polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form thirty-five years before Google came along. I was idealistic, overflowing with neat tools and great notions. Stuart and his team put out several issues of the Whole Earth Catalogue, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-Seventies and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath were the words, "Stay hungry, stay foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. "Stay hungry, stay foolish." And I have always wished that for myself, and now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you. Stay hungry, stay foolish.

Thank you all, very much.

On a lighter side...

The act of unlocking

A customer arrived at an automobile dealership to pick up their car, They were told that the keys had been accidentally locked in it.
He went to the service department and found a mechanic, Mr Santa working feverishly to unlock the driver`s side door.
As the customer watched from the passenger`s side, he instinctively tried the door handle and discovered it was open.
"Hey," he announced to the technician, "It`s open!"
"I know," answered Santa.- "I already got that side."


Well prepared

Mrs Banta phoned Banta in the office and said: "Darling, come home early, we are going to have my mother for dinner."

"Good" replied Banta, "make sure she`s prepared well".


Engagement ring

The Sardarni asked her lover, Santa Singh
Santa Darling, if we get engaged will you give me a ring?
Sure replied Santa What's your phone number?

Sardarji proposes to a woman

She says yes if you bring me a pair of crocodile boots.
He sets off to Africa and disappears.

Finally a search is being made, they find him hunting crocodiles and watch him killing a huge one.

He walks over the reptile, checks its legs and angrily exclaims "71st and *AGAIN* barefeet!"


Santa and Banta boasting of their parents achievements to each other

Santa : 'Have you ever heard of the Suez Canal?'
Banta : 'Yes, I have'
Santa : 'Well, my father dug it.'
Banta : 'That's nothing, have you ever heard of Dead sea?'
Santa : 'Yes, I have.'
Banta : 'Well, my father killed it.'

Santa and Banta at a bar sipping black label

Banta singh noticed a gorgeous blonde sitting by herself in a corner. As he was getting up to talk to her.
Bartender : "Hey don't worry about her, She is lesbian!"
Banta : "Lesbian or no lesbian, I get them all"
....and he stylishly holding his whiskey in his left hand walked to her table. Then leaping forward in a very sexy voice he says.
"Honey where exactly in Lesbia, you from?"



Santa Singh with two red ears went to his doctor

The doctor asked him what had happened to his ears and he answered, "I was ironing a shirt and the phone rang but instead of picking up the phone I accidentally picked up the iron and stuck it to my ear.."
"Oh Dear!" the doctor exclaimed in disbelief. "But .. what happened to your other ear?"
"The scoundrel called back."

Thursday, June 16, 2005

Procrastination..

Of late I have been procrastinating a lot of things. I am not sure how this started. I dont like it. I am trying to get out of it. I was never like this before. I see this creeing into my work schedules too which is not good. But I do make the deadlines. I hate to do anything at the last moment and I have been doing exactly that these days in many cases. Is it laziness or lack of consequences that causes this? On the positive side, I never had to go through a dreadful consequence because of my procrastination. This also seems to be preventing me from getting out of it.
Moods seems to play a big role in it. I tend to procrastinate less when my mood is upbeat. If it is going downhill, it gets worse. I am not blogging quite often as I would like to because I have been putting it off every time I have something to blog. So I decided to tackle the root cause of what is preventing me from blogging using blogging. I am hoping that everytime I get to read this, it will motivate me to blog more often and procrastinate less.

Monday, June 06, 2005

Yet another resolution...

I have resolved yet again for the umpteenth time that I will start jogging again. I now have the same enthusiasm that I had each time I decided to start working out. Only difference this time is that I am making it public using this powerful tool called the World Wide Web. Let me see if this would help me keep this promise to myself a little longer, long enough to become a habit like brushing my teeth every morning.
Every time I see a dedicated soul jogging or cycling I beat myself up and ask whats stopping me from doing it. I still dont know the answer for that. Now that I have started working out, I have again joined that elite crowd of dedicated professionals. I wish to remain in that group much longer this time.
It really feels good after an intense work-out. A 30 minute jog in the woods refreshes my mind and body and I would not hesitate to share this with any enthusiast. Well, I would be even more happy if I could motivate one soul to start working out. I am going to strive towards that. One soul at a time.
I always wanted live someplace where there is a quite trail in the woods close to my house. It just so happens that I have been living in such a house for the past 2 years yet I never ventured into those parts of the woods until today. A very quite and serene jog through the woods was exhilarating. I also found out that this trail continues along a lush green golf course on one side and a creek on the other lined with drooping branches covering the trail. I just ran half the distance. There are still unventured parts of the trail yet to be discovered.
I hope atleast this would help me continue this journey through the woods for some time to come and make this road not take a well used one.

Saturday, June 04, 2005

Gender equality..

Having grown up in a traditional Indian family, I have come across a lot of customs and values that were followed, some with reason and some blindly. After staying away from home through high school and college, I came to realize how hard it is for an Indian women in the family to shoulder all the house chores. Traditionally, the women of the house is expected to stay in the house, cook, clean and take care of the family. It still goes on in millions of household in India and some in the US too. Some come to accept the fact that they have to spend the rest of their life like this and some are forced into it because of circumstances. For whatever reason it may be, I personally feel that this gender inequality between a man and a woman in a Indian family is not fair and it is time for a change.
Having lived in the US for 7 years now, I have got some perspective on how life can be and what sacrifices Indian women do to run the family. I am not sure if I would have seen through this if I was in India. There are a hundred things that I can list which I feel is unfair to women. I am sure those women would have felt the same but could not voice it. I think to myself everyday if I can do something to close this gap. Even a small gesture that would make the Indian men folks realize that there is nothing called a "womens chore". I strongly believe that every Indian woman has the same rights as an Indian man. Exercising this right is their choice.
There is so much I want to say about this but I dont know where to start. I need to serialize my thoughts on this and write about it. This is just a start. I have started long journey and I hope to make some difference.

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Linux fascination

Every now and then, I get fasctinated with Linux. Just for this one reason, I have a machine at home running linux to satisfy my craving for some geek stuff now and then. I always had this impression that linux is not for common man and is only for those hardcore computer gurus. It proves right everytime I work with it. For eg: I wanted to install Firefox browser on my Linux machine. When I tried doing that, it complained that I have a old version of glib.c. So I had to install this from the GNU website first. When I tried doing that, it complained about having old versions of assembler and linker. So I had to first install the newer version of the assembler and linker before I could install glib.c. This is just a sample of how complicated it is to install something on a linux box. I have had this issue with other applications on this platform but never had the heart to give it up. The challenger posed by this OS to a computer literate like myself is quite scary. So how do I tame this monster now?
The only way I found out was to be patient and give it what it demands. Sometimes it has taken me months to install one simple application on linux when it took less than 5 mins to install the Redmond version of the same application. That does not deter me in any way to shun linux and take a pilgrimage to Redmond. It intrigues me even more and I have come to love the challenge. Unfortunately, I do not have the time chunks it demands from a Linux newbie like me. I try to battle it whenever I could. Some I win and some I loose. I tend to like the ones I loose since I end up learning a lot more about this beast in trying to get it to work. I have now hit a wall installing the latest version glib.c. Not sure how long this is going to take me to resolve it. I am not going to give up that easily.